Tuesday, October 25, 2011

&& I'm The Girl...

I'm The Girl...
That Twirls Her Hair When She's Nervous.
That Likes To Drive Fast.
That Loves To Laugh Til She Cries.
That Is A Neat/Clean Freak.
That Takes A While To Understand A Joke Sometimes.
That Will Stand In The Rain.
That Is Probably More Obsessed With Sports Than You.
That Tries To Do Everything Herself.
That Loves To Bake.
That Will Try Almost Everything At Least Once.
That Likes To Workout.
That Has Dreams For Herself.
That Doesn't Give Up.
That Cares More About Her Friends And Family Than She Ever Will For Herself.
That Would Cook For You.
That Cleans At 2 In The Morning.
That Hates Putting Laundry Away.
That Has Emotional Breakdowns Every Now And Then.
That's Done Seeing The Bad In Everything.
That Makes Her Own Opinions Of Someone Before Listening To Anybody Else.
That Is An Overachiever.
That Likes To Have Fun.
That Jams Out To Music In The Car And Don't Care What People May Think.
That Doesn't Always See What Others See In The Mirror.
That Is An Organizational Freak.
That Doesn't Mind Having A Drink... Or 10.
That Doesn't Always Know How To Express What's On Her Mind.
That Hates Lazy People.
That Loves Music Not For The Music, But For The Lyrics.
That Is Afraid You'll Never Understand Her.
That Hates When You Cant Be Straight Forward.
That Loves Flowers.
That Thinks Too Much.
That Hates Not Being Able To Please Everybody.
That Would Love For You To Snuggle On The Couch To Watch Grey's With Her. :)
That Would Love If You Cooked For Her.
That Can Be Impatient.
That Is Patient.
That Loves Acoustic Covers.
That Loves Boys In Pick Up Trucks.
That Works 2 Full Time Jobs And Goes To School Full Time.
That Hates People That Are On Food Stamps And Live Off The Government When They Spend Money On Things They Don't Need.
That Votes-- And Pays Attention To News And Politics.
That Hates To Be Alone.
That Loves Boys Who Love Sports.
That In The End, Does Need You Even If She Says She Doesn't.
If You Can't Accept Me At My Worst, You Sure As Hell Don't Deserve Me At My Best.

...I'm That Girl.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

It's Now... Or Never.

The Last Couple Months I've Been On A Serious Emotional Rollercoaster.
I'm Tired Of Worrying About Hurting People And Looking Out For Other People's Feelings.
Sick Of Trying To Make Everybody Happy.
Because In Turn, It's Hurt MY Feelings And Made Me Less Happy...

And With That-- It's Made Me Second Guess Myself. A LOT.
I'm A Girl, I've Always Had Some Image Issues... But I Let Them Get Worse.
I Let Myself Think I Wasn't Good Enough.
I Hated My Job.
I Didn't Want To Be Around People.
And I Let EVERYTHING Bother Me.

Somehow, Someway-- Something Came Over Me In The Last Couple Days. It's Like I Woke Up A Brand New Person!!

This Is Where I'm At Right Now ::
It's Taken A Lot Of Strength And Alone Time Plus The Encouragement Of Others To Make Me Realize That I Look Good. That I'm Beautiful. To Be Happy With How I Look And Feel About Myself. Granted I'm Not A Size 2, And I Know There's Work To Be Done... But For Now-- I'm HAPPY.

I've Realized That I Need People In My Life. I Need People To Talk To If Need Be, People To Talk To To Ask Advice, To Laugh With Someone And Have Them Laugh At Me. Feeling Alone, Being Alone... Possible The WORST Feeling In The World. Granted Yes Everyone Needs Their Alone Time-- But When You Feel Like That Every Hour Of Every Day... It's Not Fun.

I Quit Caring About The Stupid, Little Things. I've Had FUN At My Job The Last Couple Nights. I Quit Letting Everything Bother Me And Effect How I Do My Job. I Went From Being Stressed And Hating My Job Every Single Night, To Being Carefree, Easygoing, LOVING My Job. :)

I'm DONE Living In The What Coulda Been, Shoulda Beens And The What Ifs. All I Need To Worry About Is The RIGHT NOWWW! There's Nothing I Can Do To Change The Past And Tomorrow Has Enough Worries Of Its Own.

I Know What I Want And What Makes Me Or Could Make Me Happy. And Now I Just Need To Strive For It, Grab It, Hold On And Enjoy The Ride!! And I'm Not Letting ANYTHING OR ANYONE Get In My Way!

And You Know What I've Decided?? Life Is All About The Risks That You Take. You Can't Go On Wondering What If, What If... FIND OUT!! I'm Done Living Inside The Glass House. Time To Step Out And Take In Whatever's Thrown At Me! If You Don't Take The Risk, You'll Kill Yourself Wondering What Could Have Been. It's Now Or Never. So Why Not Live In The Now?

I'm A Stronger Woman Now Than I've Ever Been!! There's Nothing You Can Do Or Say That Will Beat Me Down. Obviously If You Try To Succeed At That There's No Reason For You To Be In My Life. Dont Try To Play Me When I Can Play Just As Good If Not Better At The Same Game.

This Blog Could Have Been MUCH More Detailed But I Decided To Keep It Simple.
This Is Who I Am.