Tuesday, October 25, 2011

&& I'm The Girl...

I'm The Girl...
That Twirls Her Hair When She's Nervous.
That Likes To Drive Fast.
That Loves To Laugh Til She Cries.
That Is A Neat/Clean Freak.
That Takes A While To Understand A Joke Sometimes.
That Will Stand In The Rain.
That Is Probably More Obsessed With Sports Than You.
That Tries To Do Everything Herself.
That Loves To Bake.
That Will Try Almost Everything At Least Once.
That Likes To Workout.
That Has Dreams For Herself.
That Doesn't Give Up.
That Cares More About Her Friends And Family Than She Ever Will For Herself.
That Would Cook For You.
That Cleans At 2 In The Morning.
That Hates Putting Laundry Away.
That Has Emotional Breakdowns Every Now And Then.
That's Done Seeing The Bad In Everything.
That Makes Her Own Opinions Of Someone Before Listening To Anybody Else.
That Is An Overachiever.
That Likes To Have Fun.
That Jams Out To Music In The Car And Don't Care What People May Think.
That Doesn't Always See What Others See In The Mirror.
That Is An Organizational Freak.
That Doesn't Mind Having A Drink... Or 10.
That Doesn't Always Know How To Express What's On Her Mind.
That Hates Lazy People.
That Loves Music Not For The Music, But For The Lyrics.
That Is Afraid You'll Never Understand Her.
That Hates When You Cant Be Straight Forward.
That Loves Flowers.
That Thinks Too Much.
That Hates Not Being Able To Please Everybody.
That Would Love For You To Snuggle On The Couch To Watch Grey's With Her. :)
That Would Love If You Cooked For Her.
That Can Be Impatient.
That Is Patient.
That Loves Acoustic Covers.
That Loves Boys In Pick Up Trucks.
That Works 2 Full Time Jobs And Goes To School Full Time.
That Hates People That Are On Food Stamps And Live Off The Government When They Spend Money On Things They Don't Need.
That Votes-- And Pays Attention To News And Politics.
That Hates To Be Alone.
That Loves Boys Who Love Sports.
That In The End, Does Need You Even If She Says She Doesn't.
If You Can't Accept Me At My Worst, You Sure As Hell Don't Deserve Me At My Best.

...I'm That Girl.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

It's Now... Or Never.

The Last Couple Months I've Been On A Serious Emotional Rollercoaster.
I'm Tired Of Worrying About Hurting People And Looking Out For Other People's Feelings.
Sick Of Trying To Make Everybody Happy.
Because In Turn, It's Hurt MY Feelings And Made Me Less Happy...

And With That-- It's Made Me Second Guess Myself. A LOT.
I'm A Girl, I've Always Had Some Image Issues... But I Let Them Get Worse.
I Let Myself Think I Wasn't Good Enough.
I Hated My Job.
I Didn't Want To Be Around People.
And I Let EVERYTHING Bother Me.

Somehow, Someway-- Something Came Over Me In The Last Couple Days. It's Like I Woke Up A Brand New Person!!

This Is Where I'm At Right Now ::
It's Taken A Lot Of Strength And Alone Time Plus The Encouragement Of Others To Make Me Realize That I Look Good. That I'm Beautiful. To Be Happy With How I Look And Feel About Myself. Granted I'm Not A Size 2, And I Know There's Work To Be Done... But For Now-- I'm HAPPY.

I've Realized That I Need People In My Life. I Need People To Talk To If Need Be, People To Talk To To Ask Advice, To Laugh With Someone And Have Them Laugh At Me. Feeling Alone, Being Alone... Possible The WORST Feeling In The World. Granted Yes Everyone Needs Their Alone Time-- But When You Feel Like That Every Hour Of Every Day... It's Not Fun.

I Quit Caring About The Stupid, Little Things. I've Had FUN At My Job The Last Couple Nights. I Quit Letting Everything Bother Me And Effect How I Do My Job. I Went From Being Stressed And Hating My Job Every Single Night, To Being Carefree, Easygoing, LOVING My Job. :)

I'm DONE Living In The What Coulda Been, Shoulda Beens And The What Ifs. All I Need To Worry About Is The RIGHT NOWWW! There's Nothing I Can Do To Change The Past And Tomorrow Has Enough Worries Of Its Own.

I Know What I Want And What Makes Me Or Could Make Me Happy. And Now I Just Need To Strive For It, Grab It, Hold On And Enjoy The Ride!! And I'm Not Letting ANYTHING OR ANYONE Get In My Way!

And You Know What I've Decided?? Life Is All About The Risks That You Take. You Can't Go On Wondering What If, What If... FIND OUT!! I'm Done Living Inside The Glass House. Time To Step Out And Take In Whatever's Thrown At Me! If You Don't Take The Risk, You'll Kill Yourself Wondering What Could Have Been. It's Now Or Never. So Why Not Live In The Now?

I'm A Stronger Woman Now Than I've Ever Been!! There's Nothing You Can Do Or Say That Will Beat Me Down. Obviously If You Try To Succeed At That There's No Reason For You To Be In My Life. Dont Try To Play Me When I Can Play Just As Good If Not Better At The Same Game.

This Blog Could Have Been MUCH More Detailed But I Decided To Keep It Simple.
This Is Who I Am.


Monday, September 5, 2011

New Plan...

No More HCG.
Gonna Try Now To Do This The Natural Way!!

Weight : 164 LBS.
Neck: 14 In.
Arm: 12.5 In.
Bust: 38 In.
Waist: 35 In.
Hips: 40 In.
Butt: 43 In.
Thigh: 23.5 In.
Calf: 16 In.

With Working Two Jobs, Following A Diet Is HARD!!
So Here We Go, And Let's See How This Goes!

Sunday, July 31, 2011


Weigh In Today.... 176.

Today I Ate...

Breakfast-- 1 Orange : 62 Calories
Lunch--        Nothing.
Snack--        1 Tangerine : 37 Calories
Dinner--       Salad With Grilled Chicken
                     7 Oz Grilled Chicken Breast : 250 Calories
                     1 Hard Boiled Egg : 76 Calories
                     1/4 Cup Diced Tomatoes : 8 Calories
                     1 Teaspoon Heinz Mustard : 10 Calories
                     5 Ounces Romaine Lettuce : 2 Calories

Calories Allowed :: 500
Calories Used :: 445

So I Found Out Today That It Is IMPOSSIBLE To Be On This Diet And Go Out To Eat...


Today I Weighed In At Exactly 178.6. Again... But Like I Said-- I'm Not Going To Let Lack Of Results Get Me Down! The Way I See It :: It's Better Than GAINING Weight!

Today I Had...

Breakfast-- 1 Orange : 62 Calories
Lunch--        Salad With Grilled Chicken
                     5 Ounces Spring Mix : 20 Calories
                     1/4 Cup Diced Tomatoes : 8 Calories
                     1 Hard Boiled Egg : 76 Calories
                     1 Tablespoon Grey Poupon Mustard : 15 Calories
                     7 oz Grilled Chicken Breast : 250 Calories
Dinner--       Salad With Chicken
                     2 Ounces Chicken : 50 Calories
                     5 Ounces Spring Mix : 20 Calories
                     1 Poached Egg : 76 Calories
                     (I Forgot I Already Had An Egg Today. Oops!)
                     1/2 Cup Steamed Cauliflower : 14.6 Calories
                     1/4 Cup Grape Tomatoes : 8 Calories

Calories Allowed :: 500
Calories Used :: 599.6

Oops... The Extra Egg Didn't Help At All. That And I Was Only Supposed To Have 3 Ounces Of Chicken Or Less And I Ended Up Having More. Dang It!
Tomorrow Will Be A Better Day!

Saturday, July 30, 2011


Well! My Weigh In This Morning Was 178.6! Making Progress I'd Say!

Today I Ate...

Breakfast-- 1/2 Grapefruit : 41 Calories
                     2 Cups Of Coffee (Decaf) : 0 Calories

Snack--       8 Strawberries : 16 Calories
Lunch--      1 Small Apple : 55 Calories (Wasn't Hungry)
Dinner--     Steak And Potato Salad From Applebee's

                  (No Potatoes Or Peppers)
                   2 oz Spinach : 14 Calories
                   1 Hard Boiled Egg : 76 Calories
                   1/4 Cup Diced Tomatoes : 8 Calories
                   2 Tablespoons Grey Poupon Mustard : 30 Calories

                   4 oz Sirloin Steak : 212 Calories!

Calories Allowed :: 500
Calories Used :: 452

Better Day Than Yesterday! I'm Also On A Colon Cleanser And Drinking Water Throughout The Day. So I Think Things Are Progressing!!

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Staying Accountable!!

My Coworker And Friend Emma Is On Weight Watchers And Lately She's Been Keeping Track Of Her Points Via Blog. Which Seems Very Helpful!! So I Decided I'm Going To Keep Track Of My Calories Via Blog. :) I Think It's A Good Way For Me To Keep Track And Hold My Self Accountable.

I've Found Some Awesome Recipes That Work With HCG So I Am Going To Try New Things And Post Those As Well.

Today I Had...

Breakfast-- 1/2 Grapefruit : 41 Calories.
Lunch-- 2 Oz Tuna : 24 Calories
             5 Melba Toast Crackers (Roasted Garlic) : 30 Calories
Snack-- 5 Strawberries : 10 Calories
Dinner-- Salad With Chicken.
              Chicken  (2 oz) : 50 Calories

              1/2 Cup Steamed Cauliflower : 14.6 Calories
              1/4 Cup Grape Tomatoes : 8 Calories
              4 Steamed Asparagus : 13 Calories

              5 oz Spring Mix : 20 Calories

Calories Allowed :: 500
Calories Used :: 210.6

It Was A Rough Day Today... Busy And Stressful. A Lot Of People Eat When They're Stressed, But Not Me. So This Is What I Ate Today Which Is Way Less Than I Should Have Eaten... But Eh, You Win Some-- You Lose Some! Tomorrow Will Be A Better Day! I Also Drank Water All Day Today! :) Starting Tomorrow I'm Going To Start Posting My Weight Every Day! We'll See How This Goes....

Also Starting Tomorrow I'm Going To Do Some Running/Walking/Jogging! Gotta Get Ready For The 5K! I Also Need To Start Working On My Abs...

Until Tomorrow!