Tuesday, October 25, 2011

&& I'm The Girl...

I'm The Girl...
That Twirls Her Hair When She's Nervous.
That Likes To Drive Fast.
That Loves To Laugh Til She Cries.
That Is A Neat/Clean Freak.
That Takes A While To Understand A Joke Sometimes.
That Will Stand In The Rain.
That Is Probably More Obsessed With Sports Than You.
That Tries To Do Everything Herself.
That Loves To Bake.
That Will Try Almost Everything At Least Once.
That Likes To Workout.
That Has Dreams For Herself.
That Doesn't Give Up.
That Cares More About Her Friends And Family Than She Ever Will For Herself.
That Would Cook For You.
That Cleans At 2 In The Morning.
That Hates Putting Laundry Away.
That Has Emotional Breakdowns Every Now And Then.
That's Done Seeing The Bad In Everything.
That Makes Her Own Opinions Of Someone Before Listening To Anybody Else.
That Is An Overachiever.
That Likes To Have Fun.
That Jams Out To Music In The Car And Don't Care What People May Think.
That Doesn't Always See What Others See In The Mirror.
That Is An Organizational Freak.
That Doesn't Mind Having A Drink... Or 10.
That Doesn't Always Know How To Express What's On Her Mind.
That Hates Lazy People.
That Loves Music Not For The Music, But For The Lyrics.
That Is Afraid You'll Never Understand Her.
That Hates When You Cant Be Straight Forward.
That Loves Flowers.
That Thinks Too Much.
That Hates Not Being Able To Please Everybody.
That Would Love For You To Snuggle On The Couch To Watch Grey's With Her. :)
That Would Love If You Cooked For Her.
That Can Be Impatient.
That Is Patient.
That Loves Acoustic Covers.
That Loves Boys In Pick Up Trucks.
That Works 2 Full Time Jobs And Goes To School Full Time.
That Hates People That Are On Food Stamps And Live Off The Government When They Spend Money On Things They Don't Need.
That Votes-- And Pays Attention To News And Politics.
That Hates To Be Alone.
That Loves Boys Who Love Sports.
That In The End, Does Need You Even If She Says She Doesn't.
If You Can't Accept Me At My Worst, You Sure As Hell Don't Deserve Me At My Best.

...I'm That Girl.

Thursday, October 20, 2011

It's Now... Or Never.

The Last Couple Months I've Been On A Serious Emotional Rollercoaster.
I'm Tired Of Worrying About Hurting People And Looking Out For Other People's Feelings.
Sick Of Trying To Make Everybody Happy.
Because In Turn, It's Hurt MY Feelings And Made Me Less Happy...

And With That-- It's Made Me Second Guess Myself. A LOT.
I'm A Girl, I've Always Had Some Image Issues... But I Let Them Get Worse.
I Let Myself Think I Wasn't Good Enough.
I Hated My Job.
I Didn't Want To Be Around People.
And I Let EVERYTHING Bother Me.

Somehow, Someway-- Something Came Over Me In The Last Couple Days. It's Like I Woke Up A Brand New Person!!

This Is Where I'm At Right Now ::
It's Taken A Lot Of Strength And Alone Time Plus The Encouragement Of Others To Make Me Realize That I Look Good. That I'm Beautiful. To Be Happy With How I Look And Feel About Myself. Granted I'm Not A Size 2, And I Know There's Work To Be Done... But For Now-- I'm HAPPY.

I've Realized That I Need People In My Life. I Need People To Talk To If Need Be, People To Talk To To Ask Advice, To Laugh With Someone And Have Them Laugh At Me. Feeling Alone, Being Alone... Possible The WORST Feeling In The World. Granted Yes Everyone Needs Their Alone Time-- But When You Feel Like That Every Hour Of Every Day... It's Not Fun.

I Quit Caring About The Stupid, Little Things. I've Had FUN At My Job The Last Couple Nights. I Quit Letting Everything Bother Me And Effect How I Do My Job. I Went From Being Stressed And Hating My Job Every Single Night, To Being Carefree, Easygoing, LOVING My Job. :)

I'm DONE Living In The What Coulda Been, Shoulda Beens And The What Ifs. All I Need To Worry About Is The RIGHT NOWWW! There's Nothing I Can Do To Change The Past And Tomorrow Has Enough Worries Of Its Own.

I Know What I Want And What Makes Me Or Could Make Me Happy. And Now I Just Need To Strive For It, Grab It, Hold On And Enjoy The Ride!! And I'm Not Letting ANYTHING OR ANYONE Get In My Way!

And You Know What I've Decided?? Life Is All About The Risks That You Take. You Can't Go On Wondering What If, What If... FIND OUT!! I'm Done Living Inside The Glass House. Time To Step Out And Take In Whatever's Thrown At Me! If You Don't Take The Risk, You'll Kill Yourself Wondering What Could Have Been. It's Now Or Never. So Why Not Live In The Now?

I'm A Stronger Woman Now Than I've Ever Been!! There's Nothing You Can Do Or Say That Will Beat Me Down. Obviously If You Try To Succeed At That There's No Reason For You To Be In My Life. Dont Try To Play Me When I Can Play Just As Good If Not Better At The Same Game.

This Blog Could Have Been MUCH More Detailed But I Decided To Keep It Simple.
This Is Who I Am.

TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT!

Monday, September 5, 2011

New Plan...

OKAY!
Sooo--
No More HCG.
Gonna Try Now To Do This The Natural Way!!

CURRENT MEASUREMENTS::
Weight : 164 LBS.
Neck: 14 In.
Arm: 12.5 In.
Bust: 38 In.
Waist: 35 In.
Hips: 40 In.
Butt: 43 In.
Thigh: 23.5 In.
Calf: 16 In.

With Working Two Jobs, Following A Diet Is HARD!!
So Here We Go, And Let's See How This Goes!

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Impossible!

Weigh In Today.... 176.

Today I Ate...

Breakfast-- 1 Orange : 62 Calories
Lunch--        Nothing.
Snack--        1 Tangerine : 37 Calories
Dinner--       Salad With Grilled Chicken
                     7 Oz Grilled Chicken Breast : 250 Calories
                     1 Hard Boiled Egg : 76 Calories
                     1/4 Cup Diced Tomatoes : 8 Calories
                     1 Teaspoon Heinz Mustard : 10 Calories
                     5 Ounces Romaine Lettuce : 2 Calories


Calories Allowed :: 500
Calories Used :: 445

So I Found Out Today That It Is IMPOSSIBLE To Be On This Diet And Go Out To Eat...

Overkill.

Today I Weighed In At Exactly 178.6. Again... But Like I Said-- I'm Not Going To Let Lack Of Results Get Me Down! The Way I See It :: It's Better Than GAINING Weight!


Today I Had...


Breakfast-- 1 Orange : 62 Calories
Lunch--        Salad With Grilled Chicken
                     5 Ounces Spring Mix : 20 Calories
                     1/4 Cup Diced Tomatoes : 8 Calories
                     1 Hard Boiled Egg : 76 Calories
                     1 Tablespoon Grey Poupon Mustard : 15 Calories
                     7 oz Grilled Chicken Breast : 250 Calories
Dinner--       Salad With Chicken
                     2 Ounces Chicken : 50 Calories
                     5 Ounces Spring Mix : 20 Calories
                     1 Poached Egg : 76 Calories
                     (I Forgot I Already Had An Egg Today. Oops!)
                     1/2 Cup Steamed Cauliflower : 14.6 Calories
                     1/4 Cup Grape Tomatoes : 8 Calories


Calories Allowed :: 500
Calories Used :: 599.6


Oops... The Extra Egg Didn't Help At All. That And I Was Only Supposed To Have 3 Ounces Of Chicken Or Less And I Ended Up Having More. Dang It!
Tomorrow Will Be A Better Day!



Saturday, July 30, 2011

Progress!

Well! My Weigh In This Morning Was 178.6! Making Progress I'd Say!

Today I Ate...

Breakfast-- 1/2 Grapefruit : 41 Calories
                     2 Cups Of Coffee (Decaf) : 0 Calories

Snack--       8 Strawberries : 16 Calories
Lunch--      1 Small Apple : 55 Calories (Wasn't Hungry)
Dinner--     Steak And Potato Salad From Applebee's

                  (No Potatoes Or Peppers)
                   2 oz Spinach : 14 Calories
                   1 Hard Boiled Egg : 76 Calories
                   1/4 Cup Diced Tomatoes : 8 Calories
                   2 Tablespoons Grey Poupon Mustard : 30 Calories

                   4 oz Sirloin Steak : 212 Calories!

Calories Allowed :: 500
Calories Used :: 452


Better Day Than Yesterday! I'm Also On A Colon Cleanser And Drinking Water Throughout The Day. So I Think Things Are Progressing!!

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Staying Accountable!!

My Coworker And Friend Emma Is On Weight Watchers And Lately She's Been Keeping Track Of Her Points Via Blog. Which Seems Very Helpful!! So I Decided I'm Going To Keep Track Of My Calories Via Blog. :) I Think It's A Good Way For Me To Keep Track And Hold My Self Accountable.


I've Found Some Awesome Recipes That Work With HCG So I Am Going To Try New Things And Post Those As Well.


Today I Had...


Breakfast-- 1/2 Grapefruit : 41 Calories.
Lunch-- 2 Oz Tuna : 24 Calories
             5 Melba Toast Crackers (Roasted Garlic) : 30 Calories
Snack-- 5 Strawberries : 10 Calories
Dinner-- Salad With Chicken.
              Chicken  (2 oz) : 50 Calories

              1/2 Cup Steamed Cauliflower : 14.6 Calories
              1/4 Cup Grape Tomatoes : 8 Calories
              4 Steamed Asparagus : 13 Calories

              5 oz Spring Mix : 20 Calories


Calories Allowed :: 500
Calories Used :: 210.6

It Was A Rough Day Today... Busy And Stressful. A Lot Of People Eat When They're Stressed, But Not Me. So This Is What I Ate Today Which Is Way Less Than I Should Have Eaten... But Eh, You Win Some-- You Lose Some! Tomorrow Will Be A Better Day! I Also Drank Water All Day Today! :) Starting Tomorrow I'm Going To Start Posting My Weight Every Day! We'll See How This Goes....


Also Starting Tomorrow I'm Going To Do Some Running/Walking/Jogging! Gotta Get Ready For The 5K! I Also Need To Start Working On My Abs...

Until Tomorrow!       

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Fresh Beginnings, New Goals!

Okay!!
Today Is Day 3 On The HCG, But Day 1 Of The Diet.
For Breakfast I Had A Grapefruit. And Good Ol' H2O.
Lunch? I'm Thinking A Green Smoothie From Bev's Brew. Which Has Spinach, Kale, Parsely And Apple. Dinner? Will Be Steak Or Chicken (3 Oz) With A Salad I'm Thinking. Of Course... No Croutons, Cheese, Bacon, Or Dressing. But Lemon Juice It Is!
On This Second Go-Around Of The HCG, I Am Setting New Goals For Myself. Granted, I Still Have To Old Goals I Want To Meet, But There's Nothing Wrong With Wanting To Accomplish More.
 
Goals::
  • Fit Into My Bridesmaid Dress. It Fits Fine, But My Tummy Sticks Out A Bit... I Want To Be Able To Wear It Comfortably Without A Fat Sucker Inner, Haha.
  • Be Able To Wear My Bikini That I Bought For Motivation BEFORE Summer Is Over... Almost There! :)
  • Complete A 5K.
  • Not Let Results Or Lack Thereof Get Me Down.
  • Not To Let Peoples Opinions Or Judgements Effect Me.
I'd Say Those Are Pretty Good Starting Goals! And The Best Part Is, I'm Almost There!

So As Of Today, My Starting Weight Is... GULP! 182....
But I Know I Can Do This!

Wish Me Luck! <3

"Nothing Tastes As Good As Skinny Feels."

Monday, July 25, 2011

Late Start...

So I Originally Was Going To Be Starting The HCG Up Again On Saturday... But That Never Happened Because I Couldn't Find My Pills. :(
But Then I Found Them And Started Sunday!
Yesterday And Today Are "Load Days." Which Is Basically You Loading Up On Calories. You Eat Pretty Much Everything And Anything.
I Might Mention That Loading = Disgusting!!!
You Feel Disgusting At Least. Or I Do.
So Tomorrow I Start The 500 Calorie Diet. I Would Say Wish Me Luck, But I've Done It Before And I Know I Can Handle It. :)

Friday, July 22, 2011

Project: ME!

Alright, I've Put It Off Long Enough! Thought I'd Share My Latest Project With You All. Project: ME!
I've Been Unhappy With My Appearance And It's Time For Me To Be Happy With Myself. Not Just Happy About My Looks, Happy With Myself As A WHOLE! I Am Determined!

My Best Friend Got Me Started On The HCG Diet, Which Is Definitely A Start To This Project! It's A 3 Or 6  Week Diet. I Did The 3 Week Diet And Saw Some Awesome Results!

3 Weeks... 22 Pounds!

I Took  A 2 Week Break And I'm Starting It Up Again Tomorrow! Haven't Decided If I'm Doing The 3 Or 6 Week Yet...

My Goal For This Project Is To Be Able To Wear My Bridesmaid Dress For My Best Friend's Wedding In Septemeber. AND Without Wearing A Fat Sucker Inner... Haha. Also To Be Able To Be Confident In The Bikini I Bought And Wear It Before Summer Is Over.

This Is All I Have For Now... I'll Start Off Tomorrow With Day 1!!

Friday, May 20, 2011

What Would You Do For A Penny?

Many Of Us Would Do A Lot For $100, $50, Or $20.
But What Would You Do For A Penny?
How Far Would You Go? How Much Would You Risk?
We Walk By People Everyday As If They're Worthless. Never Giving Them A Second Chance.
Never Knowing That They're Worth A Lot. That They Could Be Worth Everything.
How Many Times In A Day, In An Hour, In A Minute Do We All Make That Mistake?
How Hard Would It Be To Go Out Of Your Way To Say Hello To Someone That You See In The Halls At School Every Day, To A Coworker, To The Person You See In Line Every Day At Starbucks?

Would You Believe Me If I Say That Just By Making An Effort, You Changed Somebody's Day For The Better? Changed Their Life Maybe? Give It A Try.**I'd Like To Hear Your Opinions! Are You Willing To Give This A Try? What Are Your Reasons For Or For Not Doing So?

I Don't Regret Anything In Life, Because I Believe At One Point, It Was Exactly What You Wanted.
That My Choices And Actions Have Made Me Who I Am Today.
But You Know What? I Learned From It.

The Only Thing I Would Change If I Could? I'd Make That Effort To Say Hello To Somebody. To Be Their Friend. To Make Their Day A Little Bit Brighter Than What It Was.
Just Because I Didn't Do It Then, Doesn't Mean I Can't NOW.

The Past Is Simply That. It's Passed. There's Nothing You Can Do To Change It.
Quit Worrying About The Future And What Could Happen Tomorrow. Because Tomorrow? Tomorrow Has Enough Worries Of It's Own.
All You Can Do, Is Live In The Present. Because That's What It Is.
It's A Present. All You Can Do Is Live In The NOW. Make It Better Than Yesterday.

I Wish I Would Have Reached Out To The Someone Who Back Then, I Didn't Give The Time Of Day. Nor Did Anybody Else. But I Can't Mope Around Being Upset About It. Instead, I Can Change It, And Make It Happen NOW.

We're All The Work Of God, And God Works Through Every One Of Us.
"But He Said To Me, 'My Grace Is Sufficient For You, For My Power Is Made Perfect In Weakness.' Therefore I Will Boast All The More Gladly About My Weaknesses, So That Christ's Power May Rest On Me. That Is Why, For Christ's Sake, I Delight In Weaknesses, In Insults, In Hardships, In Persecutions, In Difficulties. For When I Am Weak, Then I Am Strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-10.

It Seems More Often Than Before, We Hear About Suicide [Teen & Adult], And School Shootings.
Did You Realize The The Majority Of Those Victims Were Alone?
Felt As If They Were In Fact Worthless. Just A Penny Beside A Stack Of 100 Dollar Bills.
They Felt Like They Didn't Matter, That They Had Nobody.
How Horrible For Somebody To Feel Like That.
Look At Your Best Friend. Maybe, If It Weren't For You.. They Wouldn't Be Here Today.
Well Why Not Make An Effort Every Day To Save A Life?
Look At The Person Beside You In Line At The Grocery Store. Maybe They're Thinking That They Don't Matter. That Nobody Cares.
How Awful Is It To Think That Because One Person Didn't Make An Effort, This Person Thinks They Don't Matter.

My New Life Goal Is To Look At People Twice. Not Even Twice.
To Smile At Them The First Time I See Them. To Brighten Their Day.
And I Know That God Has My Back.
"Whatever You Do, Work At It With All Your Heart, As Working For The Lord, Not For Men." --Colossians 3:23.

And Besides, Who's To Say It's Just The Lonely Ones You Help? Ever Think About Your Own Family? Friends. Classmates. Coworkers. What Would You Do If They Were Gone Tomorrow?

Did You Say It? "I Love You. I Don't Ever Want To Live Without You. You Changed My Life." Did You Say It? Make A Plan. Set A Goal. Work Toward It. But Every Now And Then, Look Around. Drink It In, Cuz This Is It. It May All Be Gone Tomorrow.

My Goal For The Month, Is To Introduce Myself To 5 New People. And Pray That I Brighten Their Day.

"To Save A Life" Is A Movie About An Outcast In Highschool Who Takes His Own Life Because He Felt That He And His Life Were Worthless. His Childhood Friend Is The All-Star At School, And Gives Up All Of His Dreams And Social Status, To Get To Know God And His Later On, New Friends.
This Movie Deals With Every Day Issues That Teens Face In Life As Of Now.
"To Save A Life" Was In Fact Written By A Youth Pastor, And Is Probably The Most Inspiring Movie I've Ever Seen. And I Strongly Encourage You To Watch It.

--kc ♥

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Ego [[Killerrrr]]

My Best Friend Is Getting Married This September!!!

So The Point Of This Blog...
Long Story Short:::
My Bride's Maid Dress Doesn't Fit. =(

And It Makes Me Hate My Body... Ugh.

And That's All I Have To Say About That!

Friday, February 18, 2011

Pieces Of Me.


Hello! ♥
This Is Indeed My First Blog-- So I'll Start It Off With A Little Bit About... ME!

My Name Is Kasie. However People Always Mispronounce My Name... So I Use My Initials. KC ♥
I Was Born In Seoul, South Korea. You Better Believe It! Korea... Represent! SOUTH Korea, That Is!
I Have Three Dogs-- Lady: A Golden Retriever, Tramp: A Papillion // Poodle Mix, And Allie: A Bichon Frise. They Make Me Laugh And Smile Everyday. I Love It!

I Am Also Attending School, Currently Studying Pre-Med. I Hope, After Manyyyy Years Of Schooling, To Become A Pediatric Surgeon With Specialties In Either Neuro Or Neo-Natal. When I Become A Doctor I Hope To Have A Medical Breakthrough Of Some Kind. Everybody Wants To Find The Cure For Cancer, But I Want To Find The Cause And Cure For Autism!


I'm A Girl... So Of Course I Love Fashion! Clothes, Accessories, Hair, Make-Up, The Whole Bit! I Love Styling My Own Hair The Best! I Think That All Started Because I Don't Trust Anybody Else... Except My Mommy! To Do My Hair. I Like Spending Time Watching Tutorials On Youtube And Trying To Find New Ideas. I Also Like Looking Through Magazines And Different Fashion Trends And Styles!

However, Just Because I'm A Girl Does Not Mean I Don't Love Sports.... I DO! Baseball && Basketball Are My Favorite! Baseball-- Cincinnati Reds! My Dad And His Family Grew Up Liking The Cincinnati Reds And So Of Course I Followed. =) This Was A Great Year For The Reds! They Have Not Been In The Playoffs For FIFTEEN Years And They Made It This Year! Also They Had Some Reds In The All Star Game For Once! Joey Votto Was Named NL MVP And Was Even In The Race For Triple Crown! And They Got A Cuban Pitcher-- Chapman. He Can Throw Fast Balls Over 100 MPH! He's Gonna Be A Great Relieving Pitcher This Season! And For Basketball? The LA Lakers Of Course!! Gasol, Fisher, Artest, Odom, Bynum And Who Else? KOBE. Watching Lakers Game Are The Highlights Of My Nights. I I LOVE NBA Season. Because It Lasts From October To June. And The Remaining Months, I Get To Watch Baseball. It's A Win-Win For Me!

More About Me--
The Ups And Downs, Give Or Take.

I Work At A Restaurant As A Server And I Am Very OCD About Cleaning And Making Sure Things Are Put Away In The Right Place, Done The Right Way, Etc. Howeverrr... Not So Much When It Come To My Own Room! I'm Not Quite Sure Why This Is.... But I Need To Change That!!

I'm A Very Picky Eater. I Rarely Will Try Anything New If It Doesn't Appeal To Me. I Won't Even Consider It! I Hate Seafood, HATE, HATE, HATE It! Blechhh. I Have Very Cheap Taste. =) Easy Mac, Ramen Noodles, Bagel Bites, Love It! Take Me To A Fancy Restaurant And I Probablyyyy Won't Be Eating The Prime Rib, Haha.


I Don't Have A Problem Confronting Somebody If They're Irritating Me Or Doing Something Wrong. Especially At Work. However, That Trait Does Get Me In Trouble. =/

You Would Think That By Not Having Trouble Confronting Someone I Can Say Whatever's On My Mind.
Not So Much. If Something's Bothering Me Personally, I Tend To Keep Those Emotions Locked Up. I Have Trouble Talking About How I Feel, But I Don't Feel That That's Such A Bad Thing.

Perfectionist. That Would Be Me. If Something's Not Done Right, It Drives Me Crazyyy! And That Will Never Change, Ha.

Well Okayyyy-- I Think That About Sums It Up About Me!

Until Next Time. ♥